Meet my Eternal Bestfriend

Do you want to know my secret? Do you want to know who is my new bestfriend? the bestest of all? Actually he is the bestest of all my eternal bestfriend. In my whole life, he is the one who fulfilled my true happiness and who changed me for the better. He was there for me all the time most especially in times of my sorrow, afflictions and trials- giving inspirational advices and to be more spiritually minded most especially to become wax stronger, to stand firm. He always never let me feel down and through him, I gain wisdom and be so special. He loves me for who I am and he taught me to be forgiving to others. He taught me to become more closer and cleave unto God. He taught me to always choose the right and be good in all my proceedings. I remember the day I felt and thought nobody loves me and so I went to him. Unexpectedly, he never let me feel so down but let me feel that he loves me and reminds me that Heavenly Father loves me so much. I want you to meet my newest ETERNAL BESTFRIEND: The Book of Mormon- Another Testament of Jesus Christ.

I encourage you to read this and once you read the content of this book, try to ponder within yourselves and pray about it if the things you read are true. I testify to you that you will get your answer if you ask the Lord with sincere faith and this book The Book of Mormon will testify you that these things are true. I have so many questions and doubts before if this book is true but now I finally have the answer. This book is my eternal bestfriend and I won't exchange any other things save it the Book of Mormon. He will be your bestfriend if you let him in. You won't take back any regrets on it. Your life will changed- change for the better. I really love this book and the most my fave book here on earth. Spare time in reading this even for a few minutes.

DON'T MISS A CHANCE OF READING THIS BOOK OF MORMON. Enjoy reading this. :-)


Sister Bohol

Finally! My Mission Call is HERE

I've been waiting for my mission call to arrive for about 3 weeks. Patience and patience. :-)

February-May

ActuallyI started to process my papers last February and I encountered problems while I was processing all my papers but then I actually overcame it all. I always had a problem with my medical that I thought it's all over now. Then follow my dental papers which I should have to come back to my dentist. When everything were ok I realized something very important that I need to correct the mistakes I did before. I thought I won't be forgiven and take months before I will be forgiven. But heavy burdens gone and I found myself being born again and feel the purity inside of me. After all that, I waited when the mission president will come back here in Dumaguete but when he said he will come back during our 1st ever Dumaguete Stake Conference my friend told me that I will no longer pass my papers to him. My papers will be directly submit it to whoever our Stake President will be. So here it goes, I have to wait for about 2 weeks, June 15 was our Stake Conference. In the day of the conference, I submitted it to our 1st Stake President. So it's on his hands already but there were some problems again.

July
 He thought my papers were incomplete so he talked to me and I felt nervous about it. When I checked my papers everything were complete. I was almost giving up and been out of patience. Haha. So I gave it back to him. The following day, I asked him how's my papers now? He answered me that he is still waiting for the response from the church headquarters how to send my counterpart and he returned my money to keep it while waiting. I waited again.
(2nd Week) He informed me that I will give directly to the Bishop on Sunday my counterpart putting it in a Tithing slip but I will not write the amount in Tithing but at the bottom word "Others" then specify for what this for  then he will get the receipt. So everything went smoothly fine.
 (3rd Week) I follow-up how's my papers. He is our teacher in the Book of Mormon class. After our class I asked him and he answered that he still on the process, he needs to type I think some of the information of my papers. A little bit disappointed but I always think positively.
(4th Week) Our class with the Stake President, our teacher, this really excite me during our class. He was discussing and mentioned about missionary work he inserted in the class about my call. He said that he sent it already to the Church Headquarters. This thrilled me a lot. hahaha

August

(1st Week) I was really thinking all over and over about my call, searching in the internet what's the process and about missionaries, missionary work. This is really is it. August 5, 2014 (Tuesday)- our Stake President texted me that "gud pm Sister Fretzie YOUR MISSION APPLICATION IS NOW READY FOR ASSIGNMENT". haha I jumped and shouted I was so super duper happy.

(2nd Week)  Wednesday, August 13, 2014-One of the unforgettable moment happened. It's all about my dream. Well, if you want to know the full story of my dream, I posted it before this. A close friend to my family who died 2 years ago holding a Melchizedek Priesthood. He was a father and an RM who got assigned before in Baguio Mission.
Book of Mormon class- Thursday- During our class, he inserted again to say "imong call sister fretzie kay READY FOR ASSIGNMENT". yay!!!!!! exciting!

(3rd Week)Sunday, August 17, 2014. I asked our Bishop what's going on about my papers and he said that "ASSIGNMENT MADE" but it's still in the Church Headquarters. I felt so nervous and excited. Thrilled!!!! :-)

(4th Week) Sunday, August 24, 2014. I didn't ask the Bishop how's my papers now. Then I saw Nathy and asked him if he can have access about those prospective missionaries improvement of their applications. And so he can access unfortunately not mine but in his ward only since I'm from Ward 3 and he's from ward 2. I saw the application of my friend Kathy that Mission call made and mail sent. And since I knew that our mission application update the same I was expecting that mine is coming. I might received my call within that week or after that week or 1st week of September.
Thursday, August 28, 2014. Book of Mormon class- our Stake President wasn't around and so there's a sub-teacher. During class, Kuya Rodel congratulated my friend Kathy about her call that she received it already. And she's called to serve in the Philippines Angeles Mission. She told me that there's other call too but don't know whose call. And so I felt nervous and excited. I felt it it's my call!!! I posted on facebook right away the news. haha and was confirmed. Our bishop commented on my post that he will give it to me this Sunday.

SUNDAY, AUGUST 31,2014. I woke up early 4 am and couldn't find the reason why I can't go back to sleep and so what I did was I read the Book of Mormon. I continued reading  Alma 17-19. These 3 chapters I really love it. About missionary work and how to become a successful missionary.  I woke up 4am started reading and I end up reading 7am. I didn't expect I was reading just only that 3 chapters for 3 hours? haha well, I think the reason why it took 3 hours for me because I was also writing what I understand, its inspiring message, and what I learned and what are the principles and I felt. In the midst of reading, pondering and studying it, I remembered what I had done before and felt though I was not yet totally forgiven. So I prayed again and I asked Heavenly Father to forgive me and if He forgive me already please give me an answer. After that prayer when I opened my eyes, the first caught my eyes exactly the words stated in the scripture in Alma "sins were forgiven" and so I felt the peace inside my heart and nothing to worry about it. :-)
And so this is it! We arrived at church early. I was hoping that our Bishop will handed down my call directly to me maybe after the sacrament. I was feeling so nervous and freaking out excited. But our Bishop announced that I'm going to get my call and read it in the pulpit.

 The more I got nervous though. I know already where I will be going but the thing for sure is that it's really different when you already received your call and read it. Tears falling. Tears of joy and I bore my testimony after reading. So same date to depart to MTC Kathy and me. After the sacrament my bestfriend Arlie who is getting married next year to attend her youth class and she let me talk in front of her students my experience during my preparation of my mission.

Yay!!! I'm so happyyyy finally I already have my mission call! :-)

I Believe All Things of God's Plan: My Inspired Dream

My dream last Wednesday,  August 13, 2014 was one of the amazing unforgettable ever happened and t'was like a true dream. A priesthood holder father who died I guess 2 years ago and in same ward, appeared on my dream. I still clearly completely remember everything what happen in my dream. I was at the church standing in the hallway near the office of the bishop then suddenly there's a big man standing in front of me. I was shocked and nervous because this man standing in front of me was already dead. My nervousness gone away when he shook my hand and remember what he said: "Congrats!" and don't clearly heard some of the words but this word "Baptism". I noticed he was wearing ALL WHITE- white polo, white necktie, white pants, and white shoes. He looks so healthy and so handsome. His beauty was so perfect I ever seen in my life having a youthful glowing beautiful skin. After that moment, I saw him talking to a few people and these people I can't see their face, all I can see just like a shadow. One he talked to was sitting in the wheelchair. I felt those people he talked to I knew them but don't know who they were. After a short talk to them, he bade a goodbye to me with a smile then went outside. I tried to talk to him. When I looked at the window, he disappeared and saw a man outside wearing all white, it was not him. And my dream continued, I saw his youngest daughter and I said to mind, I felt it that I need to talk to her about my dreams. So the priesthood holder father I meant here was the father of Nicka Mae Maputi.
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This morning, after the sacrament I went directly to Nicka Mae and told her about my dream and then her mom. I just found out too that Ate Elly Mae, one closest to them had a dream last week about him. This wasn't her first time to had a dream to him but 3 times already. The description I told to them what he looked like in my dream was the same thing also Ate Elly Mae described wearing all white with a perfect image. It was such an amazing dream and he even talked to me. Her 3rd dream about him was he's carrying a scriptures and he was with someone she didn't know. Mom's Nicka told me that her husband during his mission in Baguio Mission was got the highest baptism all over the mission and who helped rescue less active  members in the Bacong Branch before (now a Ward). He rescued many members to be back at the church. He's also a close friend to my father, close family friend. His wife told me that he really visited his favorite people.

I realized many things after this dream of mine. He congratulated me because I'm going on a mission and he's so proud of me. I think too that he congrats me because maybe that was the day one of the Apostles all the way from Salt Lake Utah Church Headquarters made already me an assignment. A lot of things I really think of and I think there are so many things that have meanings. He said mentioned to me the word "baptism". I am thinking right now this could be Baptism for the Living and Baptism for the Dead.

1. Baptism for the Living - This might be or could be possibly talks about where the people I'm going to preach the gospel in the land where I will go to labor. In the sense that, many people are waiting of me there who are willing to accept the gospel, to be baptized in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I feel and think this land will grow in prosperity because the people are ready. These are the people who are seeking for the truth, want to feel the true happiness within themselves. I might think to that as I set always be a good example to everyone, my relatives, through this they will join the church and be get baptized. In congratulating me, it could be the sense of  I might be able to bring many souls to Christ.

2. Baptism for the Dead- As what I said earlier, he talked to these people I don't clearly totally don't seen their image but a dark shadow and felt I knew them yet don't know who they were. This might be the meaning of I really should work out of my genealogy. I need to work my family history as soon as possible. I think those were my ancestors he was talking to. I feel that many of my ancestors are accepting already the gospel in the Spirit World and they're waiting of me right now to do my part for them. I think so that was the meaning.

Baptism for the Dead Font

3. Some meanings I interpreted about my dreams- Our world, the earth and the Spirit world are in the same place. Where living people live, that's where the Spirit World exist. The difference is just we can't see them but the Spirit people can see us. He was with someone so I guess he's a Missionary doing missionary work in the Spirit World.

 I realized more even more how Missionary Work is essential here on earth. Missionary Work isn't just only a work to preach the gospel to all mankind. But it is a very in demand work we have to do. We have to be part of Missionary Work not just by preaching the gospel but to save souls. The time is nigh, we have a lot things to do doing missionary work. We MUST help hastening the Lord's work. I know that the Missionary Work in the Spirit World are really so fast, it grow faster. And here on earth, as a living human we must also do our part to get involved doing missionary work. The more I understand  our prophets why they always giving us messages about missionary work and why now the age for missionary work changed. Girls can serve at the age of 19  and boys 18. Because the missionary work in the spirit world are so fast in growing and many souls accepted the gospel there, they are waiting for us to help them through that baptism for the dead. And many souls are waiting whose family haven't yet received the gospel here on earth or might received but not yet accepted- so these mean that we have to help hastening the Lord's work.

I know and believe that the fulness of the gospel is being restored through the instrument of Prophet Joseph Smith and it can be found in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I am humbly blessed because of my dream and even now I don't know where I'll go to serve, who don't know who are these people yet I already love them. My faith grows stronger and I know this is one of the greatest revelations I ever received. How grateful I am of being a member in the true church of Jesus Christ. I know there are more things that will revealed to me as I continue to read and ponder the scriptures. The key answers are there and all I have to do is to seek for it accompanied with prayer and fasting. Hearken to the leaders, prophets.

I definitely love the gospel, doctrines and teachings of the church.
 I truly believe I AM A WOMAN OF FAITH.

Love,

Fretzie L. Bohol

Below are some information I got about the Spirit World and the Spirit People there. After I write down about my dream and what does it mean to me, I searched and read about the Spirit World. So here are the infos I got. When I read it, I feel more amazed I was right about my dream and my own understanding on it.

I Hope They Call me on a Mission- COUNTDOWN

I hope they call me on a mission. I passed all my mission papers a few weeks ago and for about a week I was waiting for the update of my mission call. It's been about for 1 week I waited then the Stake President called me on the phone. He was asking the full name of my medical doctor. I thought he already send it to the church headquarters but I was wrong. He checked all my papers all over again to make sure everything will be ok. My Stake President was our teacher in The Book of Mormon class. It's been 1 week he had my papers and I still don't know what's going on so I approached him and asked about it. He told me he still have to take some notes and then send it. So I waited for about 1 week again. The next class we had while he was teaching and we came to a point talking about those youngsters going on a mission he inserted to mentioned that my papers were already to the church headquarters. I felt with joy that time hearing about the news. Our class to him is every Thursday and so I was thinking that they maybe arere checking all my papers then submit it to the Apostles to do the assignment made through the inspiration. As days passed, I still had on my mind what's going on with my papers. After that week, Tuesday afternoon (August 5, 2014), our Stake President texted me to informed that my mission application is "Now Ready for Assignment". At that moment I read the text message I jumped and shouted of knowing the update of my mission call. I was at home that time reading my scripture. My sister-in-law and my mom wandered what happened to me why reacted like that. They thought that my mission call was already made. haha That was funny how I acted like that. But I'm still half my way and don't know when will my mission call be made and ready to send it back, the mail. I always keep on searching about the mission application process and read it all over again and again. Everyday, I kept on searching the blogs of missionaries, their experiences and watching even their video opening their call.

 Since that day, it never blotted out in my mind about my mission application. I know the process how they assigned prospective missionaries. After the mission application sent to the Salt Lake City to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints Headquarters,within the next two weeks or so, members from the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles will look over the application and through inspiration, determine the destination as well as the departure date. This will be the time filled with questions, guesses, wandered and anxiety where and when in everyone's mind. I have this anticipation feeling and so excited where the Lord wants me to go. I know the place I will be serving Him helping hastening the Lord's work is the place I meant to go. I'm beyond excited for this. One of the things I did was I asked some of my friends about their mission call, how long they've waited for it. Some say 3 to 4 weeks and now after that day the Stake President informed me, I feel though I'm waiting forever, it's too long for me to wait but I have to be patience for it. I'm always wondering ''WHERE IN THE PHILIPPINES WILL I GO"? Gessshhh.. I'm excited to preach the gospel and I know I have so many sacrifices of leaving my family to go on a mission but I know it's worth it.

I hope they call me on a mission. I feel like I'm waiting for years, forever about my mission call but patience keep me holding. I'm humbly patiently waiting for my call and I know I will be so blessed, my family and especially those people whom I will be preaching in the land where the Lord sends me.

I'm humbly blessed for the trials and challenges that came in my life because without it I won't ever feel the real happiness and won't find the truthfulness of the gospel. I gonna love it and I know it.

Love,
Future Missionary
Sister Bohol

Missionary/Member Etiquette RE-POST

This isn't my own writings but I love this. I love reading this which is a reminder to all members. This is a big help for us to help all young full time missionaries to concentrate in their work. :-)

Dear CRUSH! (PART 1)

Dear Crush,

      You know me but you don't know you're my crush. The very first time I saw you I already have feeling towards you. The setting was this: you were with the little kids, you were a choreographer to them for the upcoming event, primary. I don't know you that time but seeing you with the little kids malingaw jud kog lantaw ninyo. I though that will be the last day of seeing you secretly. But that is not the end of seeing you from the distant. It happened again during the Temple Trip in Cebu, YSA Temple Trip. Oh, no! How happy I am I got to see you again from the distant. It's really difficult for me always hiding this kind of feeling. As what I remember, it was the month of August. I will never forget those times. Inside the temple, in doing sacred ordinances you were also there but we have no chance of talking to each other nor greetings even smile. Pasulyap-sulyap lang akong mata diha nimo and mulikay if makalingi ka nako. That time, gipagya-pagya ko nilang Clifford. Gesshhh!! Katong naa tas barko, maglantaw-lantaw jud ko nimo ba ug pasiklit. Akong kalipay is makit.an lang ka. I'm already contented just seeing you from a distant or even watching you while nakatalikod ka. Nabalik lamang tas Dumaguete pero wala jud tay chance atong nagka talk. Apan nalipay man ko na naa tay memories bisag sa picture lang taman. It's a great opportunity for me to attend sa wedding reception nilang Kuya Manuel and Ate Dolor kay mas nidugay ako paglantaw lang nimo ug dako akong kalipay atong panahona. I thought pag-uli napod nato sa Dumaguete ang katapusan na kita magkita usab pero dili pa diay. Naabot sa point nga niapil kog District Choir and it's really unexpected to me that you too joined the choir. Another inspiration of seeing you again, mas more kong na inspire. And sa pag.audition nako sa choir wala ko nag expect imo diayng Ate tong akong nahimog judge sa kong asa ko ibotang. I sang a song out of tune but she did a basic thing sa pagkanta, wala ko nag expect na iya kong gibotang sa Soprano. haha I don't have a good voice in singing but she said I have the potential to become or improve my voice in singing if I keep on practicing. Overwhelmed kos compliment kay it's my first to heard it from someone naghatag ug compliment sa akoa sa pagkanta. So mao nani sya. Na inspired na nuan ko na mag attend ug practice sa choir but naa pod koy kaguol kay you just sometimes mag.apil practice sa choir. Nagguol ko. Pero wala jud ko nag lose hope ato. Sa hapit na ang adlaw na manganta najud mi nag.sige na ka ug apil sa choir. Pero akong feelings nimo after sa hitabong choir nawala because someone filled that happines. Pero wala ko nagdahum na magbulag mi. Naabot jud sa point na nasakitan jud ko maayo atong tawhana. 

  Apan sa pila ka bulan nilabay na niuandang najud ko sa choir ug dili na tig.apil sa YSA activity, nibalik na usab kog attend. Mao to sya ang adlaw our path crossed again in the month of February. I have doubts whether I still have feelings nimo or wala na. I saw you but you disappeared. And February mao na sya ang Valentine's Ball sa Ysa. Tungod kay wala ka ato na, naa koy nakit.ang cute guy I know for a very long time but I feel though attracted to him. Dili lang ko mo mention sa iyang name but muhatag kog clue he's younger nako 4 years among gap and he's 18, chinito. Like you crush, I'm younger than you for 6 years diba you're 28 na karon? Anyways, I thought again we will never be like friends jud. I remember na ikaw nagsigeg poke nako sa facebook this year lang last January. To think about it, I never expected sa mga panhitabo natong duha di ko katoo magkaclose friends tang duha. 

   How we became close friends? How does it started and when? Well, mao ni sya ang sinugdan na nagka friends ta. Katong niadto kog Siquijor. If you can still remeber? It was the end week of November 2013. Naa pa diay koy boyfriend ato. Together with my mom, Aunt Flor, my cousin Renz and Uncle Elmer nagkita tas Jo's. Nag-short term missionary work mo and with your kuyogs kay silang JP and Tatay Tumogsok. Didto ta start nagkatalk najud, say hi, nagtagdanay. I have feelings nimo ato but I hold back, keep it inside aside from having a boyfriend that time, the best thing is always to hide. That was the last time we had our conversation. Then mao natong nag poke ka nako sige sa FB January 2014. Pero you started to like my pictures and posts sa facebook and even magcomment comment pero sa personal we don't have a chance to talk. Maybe shy rajud ko ug ikaw, or awkward lang jud natong duha. Until summer came, I went to Siquijor again nagvisit lang kariyot didto then come back in Dumaguete. All the people Saints in Siquijor especially my Aunty, my cousin and Uncle are waiting of your return there. Toa kas Tacloban ato sa imong gidakoan nagbisita where that place was devastated because of the Supertyphoon Yolanda. I think you stayed there for almost 2 months then nibalik napod diris Dumaguete. And by May 2014, we see each other again. It was Sunday night and nahuman na ang choir. We crossed our path again but this time, you said Hi and I replied Hi pod nimo then the start of our conversation naabot sa Siquijor atong topic. You asked me when will go back to Siquijor and I said I don't know if naay mo libre nakog plete adto didto or if imo kung librehan plete. I was just only joking. Pero you said not a problem it's just a small amount fare. I thought you were just joking. We had conversations we talked about my past, my latest ex-boyfriend why we broke and etc. We shared so many things enjoying each other's company. You really made me laugh the whole night. They said your weird but your weirdness made me fell inlove more jud nimo. We have commons jud and some likes sa usab-usa. I know from the very start you treat me as sister, a friend, a closefriend. You were never had a feeling of getting attracted to me but I'm still contented and happy nagka friends ta. And so that night, you said to me na you'll inform me when ta muadtog Siquijor but I didn't expect anything from you na you'll do that jud. And so again we met at Sushmita's graduation again. We talk a little and so happy you were there I just love talking being with your company. So that night, you were asking a number to me para ma contact pero you gave your number to me para ako lang magtext nimo and then imo lang isave. And so, it was Sunday night and by Thursday night you called on my phone many times coz I wasn't able to answer your call kay wala ko naka reply dayon s imong message. So Friday afternoon we met at the Terminal (port of Dumaguete) together with JP niadto tag Siquijor.

  I remember atong naa tas barko, you're super talkative sigeg chikka dili mahutdag storya, daghang jokes, sigeg pakatawa. We were the most noisy sa barko hantod naabot lamang tas Siquijor. Ug sa dihang nag offer mo na magstay nalang sa inyo para makalaag ko and so nisugot ko kay I know kamong JP buotang tawo and can be trusted won't do any harmful movements towards me. Well, those days were the best ever happened sa ako life I feel so free and wild young. hahaha we shared laughter together and many memorable moments with the members in Siquijor. We always have our dine in choice at Jo's Inato Siquijor and kanunay sigeg busog jud. Then our last day was nangaligo tas Salagdoong with the members. Sadja jd ta ato and even nakabuyag ka nako ato kay kaingon kag magpa syunso ko kay maba man ko atog short kay mangaligo gud laman ug dagat pero niadto kog front seat. hahaha Di jud tikaw makalimtan. Our last night spending was in Jos Inato the best ever night imo kong gipakataw pag ayo jud. Salamat nimo you filled my happiness. Before ta matulog mag chika2 pata with my aunt before sila mupauli. Naabot ang point nagka talk ta kitang duha. I cried in front of you because sa ako na share. You listened to me. Sorry if emotional ko. :-)

Thank you for being a part of my life and be my inspiration Mr. YOW! :-)

Hahahah! Better ing.ani ang picture!

Be not FEAR, Be FEARLESS

Yesterday, July 22, 2014, was an unexpected and unplanned but still grateful it happened. I don’t have regrets in my life why I chose this path and leaving what beyond opportunities I may have because I know in myself it’s the best thing to do. For 2 and 1/2 years I became inactive in the church, there was a part of me that is missing and don’t know what it was. In that years missing in my life, I was studying and not myself nor my family, relatives sent me to a college but I got a scholarship, one congregation of the nuns. They have a program for those poor people who cannot afford themselves to go to school giving an opportunity to go to school with maintaining passing grades. I got qualified in that scholarship. I grabbed that opportunity for me to go to college and I thought I will be so happy in myself I was able to study in college but I was wrong. I became unhappy person, there’s something missing in my life. I started went to college since 2011 and stopped 2013. For those years of studying, attending every meeting with the congregation, I felt the loneliness, emptiness in my heart no matter how I let myself so happy. I’ve been searching that happiness I’m looking for, been praying and one day I found myself coming back to mormon church, the answer was there. The missing in my life was then complete. I always knew in my heart before that I know The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the true church but I didn’t listen what my heart told me. I just sometimes attended church service until such time the feeling was so strong that I have to made a firm decision. I have this feeling that I have to go on a mission and I should tell the congregation who sponsored my schooling that I have to discontinue my studies and wanna come back to mormon church. I know within myself that giving up the opportunities in my life there will be consequences I need to face. But my feeling is I don’t want this anymore this kind of life so much of hiding things, hiding feelings. I stopped and didn’t show up because I have many fears, negative thoughts. It takes courage for me to stand up about my belief and to stand firm. I’ve been so fearful for so many months before I took the courage to face them. I was different before compared now in making decisions. I’m afraid of facing the consequences and to face people what I should say and to stand what path I chose. 

Inner courage also includes doing the right thing even though we may be afraid, defending our beliefs at the risk of being ridiculed, and maintaining those beliefs even when threatened with a loss of friends or of social status. He who stands steadfastly for that which is right must risk becoming at times disapproved and unpopular.

I know being courageous is very a hard thing to do for me. All I ever want in my life is to be honest of myself, to others, and especially to God. I planned many times I have to talk to this people I didn’t show up because of the decision I made but brought me to be more fearful. There’s one person I talked to, a close person to me, he’s a psychologist as well. I told him to psycho me, anything, so he asked me a few questions and figured out about my self-awareness. This one thing that gives me additional courage he said was: “When are you going to overcome your fear to become fearless?” and so more.. The next day, I hurriedly went to the easy ride and we see each other after almost a year not showing up to them. We had conversation, many things and something was so strong in my heart that this is the right time to talk to her and so I decided. I told her if can I talk to her privately and she nodded. I went to their house and we started our conversation. Telling her the truth makes myself free and standing what my belief is. In my mind, I think I can’t stand why I chose this path. So what I did since I have the Book of Mormon in my bag, I touched it and asking to guide me every word that I would say and not me to feel nervous. So she started to ask questions about the mormon church, beliefs, etc. Every question she asked to me I was able to answer it without any doubts in my heart. I don’t even remember some of the answers I said to her I felt the Holy Spirit was so strong to me that time. I can’t really imagine myself how I grow little by little. I know and felt it that what I answered to every question she asked were all correct and no doubts at it. I remembered what she said to me as before I departed her place, saying goodbye to her was, “You know Fretzie, from the very first day I met you, I already felt it that you have so many potentials and you will become a better teacher and have a brighter future. I always knew you were such a good person, you are beautiful inside and out, you have that pure heart. I’m always praying for the path you chose and anytime you can come here, welcome here. You can talk to me anytime.” This really melted my heart and makes me cried. I never thought that my prayers were answered one by one. She supported me of going on a mission and respect what my decision is. Though there were some things she said that I’ve been wasting my time for the remaining years I didn’t continue my studies, looking beyond the status of my family that she knows I can help them. But I know within my heart that multiple blessings my family will receive as I set aside first everything and putting priority first the Lord’s work. This is ever of the unforgettable moment I will cherish in my heart of standing what is right, must be firm in decision and to overcome fear to become fearless.
When are you going to end your fear to become fearless? Well, the answer is right now. It takes courage courage in every circumstances we are facing. Everything is possible if we fight our fears and if so, we will become fearless in doing what is right. I have no regrets of what happened in my life because I know Heavenly Father never leave me alone. He guides me and He is always open arms to me. I get strength of having courage to become fearless because of Him. I realized that Heavenly Father really prepared me before going on a mission because like this experienced I had, I was acting already like a missionary. Most questions being asked usually what missionaries heard in the investigators. I feel so grateful I experienced this and He gave me to have this opportunity because I know the place He wants me to go on my mission is greater experience I will have than I experience now. I will humbly appreciate and accept where the Lord wants me to go because He knows what I’m capable of, my potentials. The place He prepared for me is so special that this land will be the best 18months in my whole life I won’t trade anything.  By then, the experiences I learned before my mission I would cherish this forever and because of the things I gained, my testimony grows. I know that The Book of Mormon is the most correct book upon the face of the earth and there’s nothing I have to prove this to people that this book is true because the book itself, The Book of Mormon, has already its proof as you read, ponder and pray about it. You will know in yourself the answer. I feel so humbled that I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and standing my belief in this church isn’t that easy but we have our own choices, whether you stand it fearlessly or always have fear. One of the best experiences I really have in my life. I love of being me, being true to myself. Waiting for my mission call for a long time because there were some papers returning makes me to become more patience and measuring it. I love the way I, myself is changing right now to become a better person.
I’ll always keep you posted guys! :-)

Love,
Soon to be a Full-time Missionary
Sister Bohol