Friday, July 25, 2014

Dear CRUSH! (PART 1)

Dear Crush,

      You know me but you don't know you're my crush. The very first time I saw you I already have feeling towards you. The setting was this: you were with the little kids, you were a choreographer to them for the upcoming event, primary. I don't know you that time but seeing you with the little kids malingaw jud kog lantaw ninyo. I though that will be the last day of seeing you secretly. But that is not the end of seeing you from the distant. It happened again during the Temple Trip in Cebu, YSA Temple Trip. Oh, no! How happy I am I got to see you again from the distant. It's really difficult for me always hiding this kind of feeling. As what I remember, it was the month of August. I will never forget those times. Inside the temple, in doing sacred ordinances you were also there but we have no chance of talking to each other nor greetings even smile. Pasulyap-sulyap lang akong mata diha nimo and mulikay if makalingi ka nako. That time, gipagya-pagya ko nilang Clifford. Gesshhh!! Katong naa tas barko, maglantaw-lantaw jud ko nimo ba ug pasiklit. Akong kalipay is lang ka. I'm already contented just seeing you from a distant or even watching you while nakatalikod ka. Nabalik lamang tas Dumaguete pero wala jud tay chance atong nagka talk. Apan nalipay man ko na naa tay memories bisag sa picture lang taman. It's a great opportunity for me to attend sa wedding reception nilang Kuya Manuel and Ate Dolor kay mas nidugay ako paglantaw lang nimo ug dako akong kalipay atong panahona. I thought pag-uli napod nato sa Dumaguete ang katapusan na kita magkita usab pero dili pa diay. Naabot sa point nga niapil kog District Choir and it's really unexpected to me that you too joined the choir. Another inspiration of seeing you again, mas more kong na inspire. And sa pag.audition nako sa choir wala ko nag expect imo diayng Ate tong akong nahimog judge sa kong asa ko ibotang. I sang a song out of tune but she did a basic thing sa pagkanta, wala ko nag expect na iya kong gibotang sa Soprano. haha I don't have a good voice in singing but she said I have the potential to become or improve my voice in singing if I keep on practicing. Overwhelmed kos compliment kay it's my first to heard it from someone naghatag ug compliment sa akoa sa pagkanta. So mao nani sya. Na inspired na nuan ko na mag attend ug practice sa choir but naa pod koy kaguol kay you just sometimes mag.apil practice sa choir. Nagguol ko. Pero wala jud ko nag lose hope ato. Sa hapit na ang adlaw na manganta najud mi nag.sige na ka ug apil sa choir. Pero akong feelings nimo after sa hitabong choir nawala because someone filled that happines. Pero wala ko nagdahum na magbulag mi. Naabot jud sa point na nasakitan jud ko maayo atong tawhana. 

  Apan sa pila ka bulan nilabay na niuandang najud ko sa choir ug dili na tig.apil sa YSA activity, nibalik na usab kog attend. Mao to sya ang adlaw our path crossed again in the month of February. I have doubts whether I still have feelings nimo or wala na. I saw you but you disappeared. And February mao na sya ang Valentine's Ball sa Ysa. Tungod kay wala ka ato na, naa koy nakit.ang cute guy I know for a very long time but I feel though attracted to him. Dili lang ko mo mention sa iyang name but muhatag kog clue he's younger nako 4 years among gap and he's 18, chinito. Like you crush, I'm younger than you for 6 years diba you're 28 na karon? Anyways, I thought again we will never be like friends jud. I remember na ikaw nagsigeg poke nako sa facebook this year lang last January. To think about it, I never expected sa mga panhitabo natong duha di ko katoo magkaclose friends tang duha. 

   How we became close friends? How does it started and when? Well, mao ni sya ang sinugdan na nagka friends ta. Katong niadto kog Siquijor. If you can still remeber? It was the end week of November 2013. Naa pa diay koy boyfriend ato. Together with my mom, Aunt Flor, my cousin Renz and Uncle Elmer nagkita tas Jo's. Nag-short term missionary work mo and with your kuyogs kay silang JP and Tatay Tumogsok. Didto ta start nagkatalk najud, say hi, nagtagdanay. I have feelings nimo ato but I hold back, keep it inside aside from having a boyfriend that time, the best thing is always to hide. That was the last time we had our conversation. Then mao natong nag poke ka nako sige sa FB January 2014. Pero you started to like my pictures and posts sa facebook and even magcomment comment pero sa personal we don't have a chance to talk. Maybe shy rajud ko ug ikaw, or awkward lang jud natong duha. Until summer came, I went to Siquijor again nagvisit lang kariyot didto then come back in Dumaguete. All the people Saints in Siquijor especially my Aunty, my cousin and Uncle are waiting of your return there. Toa kas Tacloban ato sa imong gidakoan nagbisita where that place was devastated because of the Supertyphoon Yolanda. I think you stayed there for almost 2 months then nibalik napod diris Dumaguete. And by May 2014, we see each other again. It was Sunday night and nahuman na ang choir. We crossed our path again but this time, you said Hi and I replied Hi pod nimo then the start of our conversation naabot sa Siquijor atong topic. You asked me when will go back to Siquijor and I said I don't know if naay mo libre nakog plete adto didto or if imo kung librehan plete. I was just only joking. Pero you said not a problem it's just a small amount fare. I thought you were just joking. We had conversations we talked about my past, my latest ex-boyfriend why we broke and etc. We shared so many things enjoying each other's company. You really made me laugh the whole night. They said your weird but your weirdness made me fell inlove more jud nimo. We have commons jud and some likes sa usab-usa. I know from the very start you treat me as sister, a friend, a closefriend. You were never had a feeling of getting attracted to me but I'm still contented and happy nagka friends ta. And so that night, you said to me na you'll inform me when ta muadtog Siquijor but I didn't expect anything from you na you'll do that jud. And so again we met at Sushmita's graduation again. We talk a little and so happy you were there I just love talking being with your company. So that night, you were asking a number to me para ma contact pero you gave your number to me para ako lang magtext nimo and then imo lang isave. And so, it was Sunday night and by Thursday night you called on my phone many times coz I wasn't able to answer your call kay wala ko naka reply dayon s imong message. So Friday afternoon we met at the Terminal (port of Dumaguete) together with JP niadto tag Siquijor.

  I remember atong naa tas barko, you're super talkative sigeg chikka dili mahutdag storya, daghang jokes, sigeg pakatawa. We were the most noisy sa barko hantod naabot lamang tas Siquijor. Ug sa dihang nag offer mo na magstay nalang sa inyo para makalaag ko and so nisugot ko kay I know kamong JP buotang tawo and can be trusted won't do any harmful movements towards me. Well, those days were the best ever happened sa ako life I feel so free and wild young. hahaha we shared laughter together and many memorable moments with the members in Siquijor. We always have our dine in choice at Jo's Inato Siquijor and kanunay sigeg busog jud. Then our last day was nangaligo tas Salagdoong with the members. Sadja jd ta ato and even nakabuyag ka nako ato kay kaingon kag magpa syunso ko kay maba man ko atog short kay mangaligo gud laman ug dagat pero niadto kog front seat. hahaha Di jud tikaw makalimtan. Our last night spending was in Jos Inato the best ever night imo kong gipakataw pag ayo jud. Salamat nimo you filled my happiness. Before ta matulog mag chika2 pata with my aunt before sila mupauli. Naabot ang point nagka talk ta kitang duha. I cried in front of you because sa ako na share. You listened to me. Sorry if emotional ko. :-)

Thank you for being a part of my life and be my inspiration Mr. YOW! :-)

Hahahah! Better ing.ani ang picture!
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