Friday, July 25, 2014

Dear CRUSH! (PART 1)

Dear Crush,

      You know me but you don't know you're my crush. The very first time I saw you I already have feeling towards you. The setting was this: you were with the little kids, you were a choreographer to them for the upcoming event, primary. I don't know you that time but seeing you with the little kids malingaw jud kog lantaw ninyo. I though that will be the last day of seeing you secretly. But that is not the end of seeing you from the distant. It happened again during the Temple Trip in Cebu, YSA Temple Trip. Oh, no! How happy I am I got to see you again from the distant. It's really difficult for me always hiding this kind of feeling. As what I remember, it was the month of August. I will never forget those times. Inside the temple, in doing sacred ordinances you were also there but we have no chance of talking to each other nor greetings even smile. Pasulyap-sulyap lang akong mata diha nimo and mulikay if makalingi ka nako. That time, gipagya-pagya ko nilang Clifford. Gesshhh!! Katong naa tas barko, maglantaw-lantaw jud ko nimo ba ug pasiklit. Akong kalipay is lang ka. I'm already contented just seeing you from a distant or even watching you while nakatalikod ka. Nabalik lamang tas Dumaguete pero wala jud tay chance atong nagka talk. Apan nalipay man ko na naa tay memories bisag sa picture lang taman. It's a great opportunity for me to attend sa wedding reception nilang Kuya Manuel and Ate Dolor kay mas nidugay ako paglantaw lang nimo ug dako akong kalipay atong panahona. I thought pag-uli napod nato sa Dumaguete ang katapusan na kita magkita usab pero dili pa diay. Naabot sa point nga niapil kog District Choir and it's really unexpected to me that you too joined the choir. Another inspiration of seeing you again, mas more kong na inspire. And sa pag.audition nako sa choir wala ko nag expect imo diayng Ate tong akong nahimog judge sa kong asa ko ibotang. I sang a song out of tune but she did a basic thing sa pagkanta, wala ko nag expect na iya kong gibotang sa Soprano. haha I don't have a good voice in singing but she said I have the potential to become or improve my voice in singing if I keep on practicing. Overwhelmed kos compliment kay it's my first to heard it from someone naghatag ug compliment sa akoa sa pagkanta. So mao nani sya. Na inspired na nuan ko na mag attend ug practice sa choir but naa pod koy kaguol kay you just sometimes mag.apil practice sa choir. Nagguol ko. Pero wala jud ko nag lose hope ato. Sa hapit na ang adlaw na manganta najud mi nag.sige na ka ug apil sa choir. Pero akong feelings nimo after sa hitabong choir nawala because someone filled that happines. Pero wala ko nagdahum na magbulag mi. Naabot jud sa point na nasakitan jud ko maayo atong tawhana. 

  Apan sa pila ka bulan nilabay na niuandang najud ko sa choir ug dili na tig.apil sa YSA activity, nibalik na usab kog attend. Mao to sya ang adlaw our path crossed again in the month of February. I have doubts whether I still have feelings nimo or wala na. I saw you but you disappeared. And February mao na sya ang Valentine's Ball sa Ysa. Tungod kay wala ka ato na, naa koy nakit.ang cute guy I know for a very long time but I feel though attracted to him. Dili lang ko mo mention sa iyang name but muhatag kog clue he's younger nako 4 years among gap and he's 18, chinito. Like you crush, I'm younger than you for 6 years diba you're 28 na karon? Anyways, I thought again we will never be like friends jud. I remember na ikaw nagsigeg poke nako sa facebook this year lang last January. To think about it, I never expected sa mga panhitabo natong duha di ko katoo magkaclose friends tang duha. 

   How we became close friends? How does it started and when? Well, mao ni sya ang sinugdan na nagka friends ta. Katong niadto kog Siquijor. If you can still remeber? It was the end week of November 2013. Naa pa diay koy boyfriend ato. Together with my mom, Aunt Flor, my cousin Renz and Uncle Elmer nagkita tas Jo's. Nag-short term missionary work mo and with your kuyogs kay silang JP and Tatay Tumogsok. Didto ta start nagkatalk najud, say hi, nagtagdanay. I have feelings nimo ato but I hold back, keep it inside aside from having a boyfriend that time, the best thing is always to hide. That was the last time we had our conversation. Then mao natong nag poke ka nako sige sa FB January 2014. Pero you started to like my pictures and posts sa facebook and even magcomment comment pero sa personal we don't have a chance to talk. Maybe shy rajud ko ug ikaw, or awkward lang jud natong duha. Until summer came, I went to Siquijor again nagvisit lang kariyot didto then come back in Dumaguete. All the people Saints in Siquijor especially my Aunty, my cousin and Uncle are waiting of your return there. Toa kas Tacloban ato sa imong gidakoan nagbisita where that place was devastated because of the Supertyphoon Yolanda. I think you stayed there for almost 2 months then nibalik napod diris Dumaguete. And by May 2014, we see each other again. It was Sunday night and nahuman na ang choir. We crossed our path again but this time, you said Hi and I replied Hi pod nimo then the start of our conversation naabot sa Siquijor atong topic. You asked me when will go back to Siquijor and I said I don't know if naay mo libre nakog plete adto didto or if imo kung librehan plete. I was just only joking. Pero you said not a problem it's just a small amount fare. I thought you were just joking. We had conversations we talked about my past, my latest ex-boyfriend why we broke and etc. We shared so many things enjoying each other's company. You really made me laugh the whole night. They said your weird but your weirdness made me fell inlove more jud nimo. We have commons jud and some likes sa usab-usa. I know from the very start you treat me as sister, a friend, a closefriend. You were never had a feeling of getting attracted to me but I'm still contented and happy nagka friends ta. And so that night, you said to me na you'll inform me when ta muadtog Siquijor but I didn't expect anything from you na you'll do that jud. And so again we met at Sushmita's graduation again. We talk a little and so happy you were there I just love talking being with your company. So that night, you were asking a number to me para ma contact pero you gave your number to me para ako lang magtext nimo and then imo lang isave. And so, it was Sunday night and by Thursday night you called on my phone many times coz I wasn't able to answer your call kay wala ko naka reply dayon s imong message. So Friday afternoon we met at the Terminal (port of Dumaguete) together with JP niadto tag Siquijor.

  I remember atong naa tas barko, you're super talkative sigeg chikka dili mahutdag storya, daghang jokes, sigeg pakatawa. We were the most noisy sa barko hantod naabot lamang tas Siquijor. Ug sa dihang nag offer mo na magstay nalang sa inyo para makalaag ko and so nisugot ko kay I know kamong JP buotang tawo and can be trusted won't do any harmful movements towards me. Well, those days were the best ever happened sa ako life I feel so free and wild young. hahaha we shared laughter together and many memorable moments with the members in Siquijor. We always have our dine in choice at Jo's Inato Siquijor and kanunay sigeg busog jud. Then our last day was nangaligo tas Salagdoong with the members. Sadja jd ta ato and even nakabuyag ka nako ato kay kaingon kag magpa syunso ko kay maba man ko atog short kay mangaligo gud laman ug dagat pero niadto kog front seat. hahaha Di jud tikaw makalimtan. Our last night spending was in Jos Inato the best ever night imo kong gipakataw pag ayo jud. Salamat nimo you filled my happiness. Before ta matulog mag chika2 pata with my aunt before sila mupauli. Naabot ang point nagka talk ta kitang duha. I cried in front of you because sa ako na share. You listened to me. Sorry if emotional ko. :-)

Thank you for being a part of my life and be my inspiration Mr. YOW! :-)

Hahahah! Better ing.ani ang picture!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014


Yesterday, July 22, 2014, was an unexpected and unplanned but still grateful it happened. I don’t have regrets in my life why I chose this path and leaving what beyond opportunities I may have because I know in myself it’s the best thing to do. For 2 and 1/2 years I became inactive in the church, there was a part of me that is missing and don’t know what it was. In that years missing in my life, I was studying and not myself nor my family, relatives sent me to a college but I got a scholarship, one congregation of the nuns. They have a program for those poor people who cannot afford themselves to go to school giving an opportunity to go to school with maintaining passing grades. I got qualified in that scholarship. I grabbed that opportunity for me to go to college and I thought I will be so happy in myself I was able to study in college but I was wrong. I became unhappy person, there’s something missing in my life. I started went to college since 2011 and stopped 2013. For those years of studying, attending every meeting with the congregation, I felt the loneliness, emptiness in my heart no matter how I let myself so happy. I’ve been searching that happiness I’m looking for, been praying and one day I found myself coming back to mormon church, the answer was there. The missing in my life was then complete. I always knew in my heart before that I know The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the true church but I didn’t listen what my heart told me. I just sometimes attended church service until such time the feeling was so strong that I have to made a firm decision. I have this feeling that I have to go on a mission and I should tell the congregation who sponsored my schooling that I have to discontinue my studies and wanna come back to mormon church. I know within myself that giving up the opportunities in my life there will be consequences I need to face. But my feeling is I don’t want this anymore this kind of life so much of hiding things, hiding feelings. I stopped and didn’t show up because I have many fears, negative thoughts. It takes courage for me to stand up about my belief and to stand firm. I’ve been so fearful for so many months before I took the courage to face them. I was different before compared now in making decisions. I’m afraid of facing the consequences and to face people what I should say and to stand what path I chose. 
Inner courage also includes doing the right thing even though we may be afraid, defending our beliefs at the risk of being ridiculed, and maintaining those beliefs even when threatened with a loss of friends or of social status. He who stands steadfastly for that which is right must risk becoming at times disapproved and unpopular.
I know being courageous is very a hard thing to do for me. All I ever want in my life is to be honest of myself, to others, and especially to God. I planned many times I have to talk to this people I didn’t show up because of the decision I made but brought me to be more fearful. There’s one person I talked to, a close person to me, he’s a psychologist as well. I told him to psycho me, anything, so he asked me a few questions and figured out about my self-awareness. This one thing that gives me additional courage he said was: “When are you going to overcome your fear to become fearless?” and so more.. The next day, I hurriedly went to the easy ride and we see each other after almost a year not showing up to them. We had conversation, many things and something was so strong in my heart that this is the right time to talk to her and so I decided. I told her if can I talk to her privately and she nodded. I went to their house and we started our conversation. Telling her the truth makes myself free and standing what my belief is. In my mind, I think I can’t stand why I chose this path. So what I did since I have the Book of Mormon in my bag, I touched it and asking to guide me every word that I would say and not me to feel nervous. So she started to ask questions about the mormon church, beliefs, etc. Every question she asked to me I was able to answer it without any doubts in my heart. I don’t even remember some of the answers I said to her I felt the Holy Spirit was so strong to me that time. I can’t really imagine myself how I grow little by little. I know and felt it that what I answered to every question she asked were all correct and no doubts at it. I remembered what she said to me as before I departed her place, saying goodbye to her was, “You know Fretzie, from the very first day I met you, I already felt it that you have so many potentials and you will become a better teacher and have a brighter future. I always knew you were such a good person, you are beautiful inside and out, you have that pure heart. I’m always praying for the path you chose and anytime you can come here, welcome here. You can talk to me anytime.” This really melted my heart and makes me cried. I never thought that my prayers were answered one by one. She supported me of going on a mission and respect what my decision is. Though there were some things she said that I’ve been wasting my time for the remaining years I didn’t continue my studies, looking beyond the status of my family that she knows I can help them. But I know within my heart that multiple blessings my family will receive as I set aside first everything and putting priority first the Lord’s work. This is ever of the unforgettable moment I will cherish in my heart of standing what is right, must be firm in decision and to overcome fear to become fearless.
When are you going to end your fear to become fearless? Well, the answer is right now. It takes courage courage in every circumstances we are facing. Everything is possible if we fight our fears and if so, we will become fearless in doing what is right. I have no regrets of what happened in my life because I know Heavenly Father never leave me alone. He guides me and He is always open arms to me. I get strength of having courage to become fearless because of Him. I realized that Heavenly Father really prepared me before going on a mission because like this experienced I had, I was acting already like a missionary. Most questions being asked usually what missionaries heard in the investigators. I feel so grateful I experienced this and He gave me to have this opportunity because I know the place He wants me to go on my mission is greater experience I will have than I experience now. I will humbly appreciate and accept where the Lord wants me to go because He knows what I’m capable of, my potentials. The place He prepared for me is so special that this land will be the best 18months in my whole life I won’t trade anything.  By then, the experiences I learned before my mission I would cherish this forever and because of the things I gained, my testimony grows. I know that The Book of Mormon is the most correct book upon the face of the earth and there’s nothing I have to prove this to people that this book is true because the book itself, The Book of Mormon, has already its proof as you read, ponder and pray about it. You will know in yourself the answer. I feel so humbled that I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and standing my belief in this church isn’t that easy but we have our own choices, whether you stand it fearlessly or always have fear. One of the best experiences I really have in my life. I love of being me, being true to myself. Waiting for my mission call for a long time because there were some papers returning makes me to become more patience and measuring it. I love the way I, myself is changing right now to become a better person.
I’ll always keep you posted guys! :-)

Soon to be a Full-time Missionary
Sister Bohol

Wednesday, July 2, 2014


I'm so excited for the interview. Our Stake President is going to interview me very soon for my mission. I just hope and pray that my mission papers will all be ok. So excited for me to go on a mission and to preach the gospel to all mankind. This is a very special message that they must seek to find out. Many people are very hungry spiritually. I'm thinking where does the Lord want to me to serve Him as a full-time missionary. It's really exciting and excited that my friends are going on a mission soon after they received their call. Gessshhhh! I'm almost there... I really love the gospel....


Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Proud to be a MORMON!

"Why I'm a MORMON? Why do I believe The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the Church of Jesus Christ restored by Him through his prophet, Joseph Smith?
As Christ said: "ye shall know them by their fruits" (Matthew 7:16)
What are some of the "fruits" of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints?

-One of the fruits, one of the most notable is the Book of Mormon."
**Elder Nolan Archibald
I know there are so many fruits we can tell and TESTIFY that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the Church of Jesus Christ and one of the fruits is The Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Jesus Christ. The organization of the Church itself is another fruit and so many more. During the Christ's ministry, He organized and established His church, "built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ Himself being the chief cornerstone" (Ephesians 2:20).  And we will know that it is true through the power of God, the Holy Ghost.
Such a wonderful feeling and experience when you're seeking the truth and pondering on it. You gonna feel this burning bosom in your heart when you search, seek and ponder on it. Sincere in thy prayer with faith, you'll gain wisdom. I just love this day and especially being inspired from attending Institute Class this morning I learned something new, spiritual. Reading a book "Why I'm a Mormon" makes me inspired more. This book is a "Summary: Essays by prominent members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, explaining why they are members of the church. Thanks to Kuya Norman for letting me borrow his book. I love reading this book. 

 I always feel how Heavenly Father loves me so much. Despite of my weaknesses, I can still hold on stand firm because I used my weaknesses as my strength.